Comfort sweater

You might think it's just a sweater, but it means so much more to me.

March was a difficult month for me. I had to deal with the unexpected and unbearably painful loss of my cat. I’m still grieving, but it’s true what they say about time, it helps to cope.

In the days immediately after it happened, I was unable to focus on anything or do anything. It was as if my life had stopped and I wanted to disappear too. My husband had to go to hospital for a planned procedure, so I was alone at home. It was incredibly hard to endure this emptiness. So I started a crochet project. A sweater.

It allowed me to keep my hands busy and stopped me from thinking too much about the sadness around me, even if just for a moment. Counting stitches can be so therapeutic. I continued for days, weeks and months, until today. I even finished it once, but I didn't feel it was right, so I ripped it and started again. It wasn’t a complicated project that should have required that much effort. I just needed more time to process some things.

I am ready to say it’s done now. It will forever remind me of my sweet cat. I will wear it with a special feeling in my heart and it will be a comfort to me, especially when I miss her the most.

Although it is difficult to talk about, I have decided to share my experience with you. Crocheting plays a significant role in my healing process. I hope it can also be a comfort to you, if you ever need it.